The Cycle of Pain and Self-Sabotage!!(Part two)


No one and no position can save you—not your partner, mother, sister, best friend, society, your identity, or hiding in success. Whatever your self-sabotaging behaviors, rituals, and habits are that cloud, gag, clutter, or make you feel like you are in a maze, suicidal, and in a daze, be adventurous enough to choose yourself. Face challenges and tests, and unchain your heart in love, consciousness, peace, light, truth, and integrity. Seek tools to shed your self-sabotage, find your voice, be loved, in light, at ease, in humility, and strength. Not just being defensive, a victim, a hero, and passive, but learning to be offensive, alive, and present in the game of life. Healing and growing is a process of decoding, forgiving, deprogramming, and loving to understand what happened to you. Seek to unchain your heart, find your gift, wound, and blessing to serve, and be the messenger of your spirit. Do not be afraid to reach rock bottom, & loosing all hope for toxic people around you to change. Narcissistic people will not change, and do not want to change, so save yourself, forgive, and have strong boundaries.

We as humanity collectively have failed one another as friends, parents, family, community, society, and partners. We have created outdated institutions, violent societies, dysfunctional systems, toxic corporations, unconscious family structures, and mother hunger, as humanity has forgotten its connection. Most structures are led by narcissistic, egoic people in power, psychopaths, pathological liars, and trauma-driven individuals who are hurt and hurting others in the name of belonging. Most have neglected their spirit, masked in survival, armor, belonging, and unconscious self-sabotage. 

Sit still and know it’s God.

Thanks to COVID-19, we have been collectively liberated, given a reset, a new beginning, awareness, consciousness, and a profound energetic alignment to create a New Earth for those who are ready to awaken, heal, and evolve with God’s universe.

Don’t let your mind, toxic people that don’t serve you, and self-centered humanity trick you into self-sabotage. Liberation in love, light, stillness, and knowing you are made in the image of God, whole, enough, and worthy, takes confronting your self-sabotage. Take responsibility, forgive yourself, and detach. Most people, including your own mind, will attack, violate, disrespect, betray, deceive, reject, abandon, and dismiss you at one time or another. Choose your friends, support, partners, & close relationships carefully, as most are masked, hiding, manipulative, deceptive, & unconscious. Trust people's actions, intentions, and love, rather than what they say. Life is not fair, as the reality is that narcissistic people are celebrated regardless of what they have done, and find new supplies, as justice in social setting is unjust, and they hide behind outdated institutions. 


All 8 billion of us as human beings globally were born sinful, & learning self-sabotaging and egoic behaviors in survival, but our essence is love, light, and being limitless. We have been given gifts and traps, unique to each of us, to take responsibility for the care of ourselves and Mother Earth in service. Facing your self-sabotage is a personal act of evolution, once incepted into this universe. It starts with knowing, feeling, and becoming loved, loving, and lovable, to unchain your being from anything blocking you, regardless of what life throws your way. Go on an adventure to what is seeking you, and let go of anything that is taking away from your presence, awareness, stillness, and free spirit. You have to face your inner child, hidden shadow, and self-sabotaging acts of violence to free your mind and body, to let your love shine from within, unbecoming. Be sharp, detach, kind, firm, grounded in God, aware, open to criticism, mindful, conscious, and truthful, as you never know what people are going through. Let go, release, detach, and remove yourself by any cost from these relationships, forgive yourself, and radically accept where people are. 

Choosing to inner engineer, awaken, serve, find your spiritual message, die to the past, forgive, heal, grow, upgrade, and evolve is a personal spiritual process. You are whole and enough, made in the image of God.

All religions of the world share the same message: a call to our spirit, soul, and being to align, balance, forgive ourselves, and connect to God’s universe by taking responsibility, facing, soothing, embracing, and healing our self-sabotaging behaviors, habits, and rituals to be our authentic selves. We all want to feel alive, seen, heard, and to shine in love, light, peace, joy, and harmony. Love your being, have boundaries, be vigilant, conscious, mindful, detached, private, and grounded to co-create your life. Be courageous enough to leave behind things, people, and situations that don’t serve you. Start being present, in the now, flowing with life, trusting the silence to guide you while serving in solitude. Watch, observe, and accept how you show up, and learn the lessons, however long it takes. 

“Be sharp as a serpent, kind as a dove.” - The Bible
You are never too old to manifest your vision.

Yes, this is a lengthy definition, but it’s something I have been thinking about, contemplating, and discussing with many people globally from all walks of life, especially those serving in Africa and the Diaspora, as well as environmentalists and agroecology advocates. Living, working, socializing, and serving in unpredictable times, and evolving to be part of a New World globally, makes you want to pause, reflect, and ponder about one’s humanity, being awakened, conscious, asking tough questions within, being courageous, being aware of your spirit’s message, and seeking to become one’s purpose in light. The greatest gift is feeling alive in service, being creative, sharp, alert, vigilant, healing ourselves, being aware, and conscious of what we are reflecting to others.

Our beauty as humanity is in our unique diversity, love, light, spirited flow, and authenticity to live in harmony, service, boundaries, and truth, knowing we are worthy and enough. You are enough. Be courageous to seek what is seeking you, to forgive yourself in solitude, releasing anyone that doesn’t serve you. We are all awakened spiritually, living in these unpredictable times globally, connected to God’s universe. 

You are more powerful than you think or imagine. 
Be still and know it’s GOD!!


By Dutchess@deldeyoch
Conscious. Healing. Purpose. Service.

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