Who asked you?
From a young age, I felt a deep connection to the world, nature, and the universe, & that I did not belong in the family I was born into. Growing up in an emerging, underdeveloped country and raised by a God-fearing, hardworking, and conservative family, I found solace in the diversity of people who entered my life, nature and in escaping with a good book. Nurtured by my spirit, healthy living, and a family-centred conservative lifestyle, I inherited a rebellious spirit, natural curiosity, fearless silence, kindness, artistic vision, spirituality, & discipline from my fathers, as well as a cautious, sceptical, distrusting, survival, being sharp, detached, & armour from my mother.
My best friend in highschool would always listen to my openness, empathy, wanting to save others, and truthfulness, as well as oversharing, and would advise me, 'Who asked you Sofiye.'.
Childhood of Contrasts
Even as a child, I exhibited entrepreneurial spirit, curiosity, creativity, focus, naughtiness, discipline, love for nature, compassion, stubborn, and a sense of powerful self. I knew early on that I wanted to be self-sufficient and in service to God, as I was raised by awakened fathers. Being part of diverse events at school, helping friends, and connecting with people from all walks of life brought me joy. My curiosity led me to love learning school, sports, spirituality, breaking bread with diverse people, being private, trusting my intuition in engaging with strangers, stubbornness, loving getting to know myself in solo travel, being immersed in diverse music, & choosing school projects that helped me grow.
Even as a child, I exhibited entrepreneurial spirit, curiosity, creativity, focus, naughtiness, discipline, love for nature, compassion, stubborn, and a sense of powerful self. I knew early on that I wanted to be self-sufficient and in service to God, as I was raised by awakened fathers. Being part of diverse events at school, helping friends, and connecting with people from all walks of life brought me joy. My curiosity led me to love learning school, sports, spirituality, breaking bread with diverse people, being private, trusting my intuition in engaging with strangers, stubbornness, loving getting to know myself in solo travel, being immersed in diverse music, & choosing school projects that helped me grow.
I have always been grounded to God in faith, asking the whys, to understand from within. Interacting with global friends, travelling young solo, as well as strict spiritual practices, lead me to trust my instinct, gut feeling & intuition. A bit naive, ignorant & innocent of the world, as I lived a conservative lifestyle, in my own world.
Raised by a village from different socio-economic background, I learned valuable lessons from strangers globally & locally. Despite the world's trauma, sin, prejudice and violence, I navigated life striving to live spiritually, with a vision for myself, embracing my free-spirited nature, working hard, private & disciplined. I believed in Boundaries, being sharp as a serpent, kind, alert & choosing clarity, truth, & forgiveness. Being in the real world alone by my 20s, I encountered those with evil intentions, envy, vengeance, toxic, & unconscious habits, masked, & disguised as partners, family, friends, and colleagues, as well as living in a community, society & choosing to serve Gods universe, I grieved at the cruelty, darkness & shadow we have inherited from our ancestors.
Embracing Resilience
Facing life's challenges since inception, including emotional detachment and betrayal as a cost for my authenticity, I learned that success is the best revenge. Loving oneself and humanity taught me resilience, forgiveness, and the importance of shielding oneself with boundaries, and to grieve the loss, leaving vengeance for God & never forgetting how they made me feel. Healing and growth are acts of service to awaken and evolve. Being private, strategic, & with a vision assisted me early on in life, that led me to be fearless in envisioning my life to be one of growth, passion, love, integrity, service, & peace.
Facing life's challenges since inception, including emotional detachment and betrayal as a cost for my authenticity, I learned that success is the best revenge. Loving oneself and humanity taught me resilience, forgiveness, and the importance of shielding oneself with boundaries, and to grieve the loss, leaving vengeance for God & never forgetting how they made me feel. Healing and growth are acts of service to awaken and evolve. Being private, strategic, & with a vision assisted me early on in life, that led me to be fearless in envisioning my life to be one of growth, passion, love, integrity, service, & peace.
Finding My Path
Orthodox Christianity and natures wealth of healing power, provided initial spiritual guidance, focus, discipline, healthy habits, conscious rituals, & knowing my worth. As I grew older, I questioned societal norms, cultural gender bias, outdated institutions & the inequality in the global world, and sought authenticity. Raised by conservative and empowered fathers in a patriarchal society, as well as a powerful matriarchy that supported the patriarchy, I faced numerous challenges but chose to focus on growth, empathy, & forgiveness, to grow from within. I pray, meditate, fast, lent, and seek wisdom within, whenever I have strategic decisions to navigate in the crossroads of life. Ultimately, how do I live an impactful, & ethical lifestyle as a successful professional black woman in the 21st century, to become the change I seeked from within. Forgiving the past that I did not have the tools, skills or awareness to understand. So I went on an adventure, alone, in service & chose to start my business to choose projects, to share, be part of the change I seeked & chose a continent that my family had escaped from to survive.
Orthodox Christianity and natures wealth of healing power, provided initial spiritual guidance, focus, discipline, healthy habits, conscious rituals, & knowing my worth. As I grew older, I questioned societal norms, cultural gender bias, outdated institutions & the inequality in the global world, and sought authenticity. Raised by conservative and empowered fathers in a patriarchal society, as well as a powerful matriarchy that supported the patriarchy, I faced numerous challenges but chose to focus on growth, empathy, & forgiveness, to grow from within. I pray, meditate, fast, lent, and seek wisdom within, whenever I have strategic decisions to navigate in the crossroads of life. Ultimately, how do I live an impactful, & ethical lifestyle as a successful professional black woman in the 21st century, to become the change I seeked from within. Forgiving the past that I did not have the tools, skills or awareness to understand. So I went on an adventure, alone, in service & chose to start my business to choose projects, to share, be part of the change I seeked & chose a continent that my family had escaped from to survive.
So again my family & partner asked me,
'Who asked you Sofiye
Overcoming Challenges
In fulfilling your spiritual purpose, in becoming your authentic empowered self, you will encounter life's setbacks, failures, challenges, test & curves, that are opportunities for growth. Trusting my intuition & embracing my vulnerability, I found strength in solitude & connection with a higher power. My journey has been one of self-discovery, spiritual awakening, & living authentically, sending ripple effects in changing mindsets, habits, behaviors, & ancestors cycles. Being your authentic empowered self means having haters, inner conflict, & navigating your emotions, mind & having to interact with those who want to steal & dim your light. There will be times you will fail, betray your intuition, & be broken, feel it all to learn the lesson, "This too shall pass".
In fulfilling your spiritual purpose, in becoming your authentic empowered self, you will encounter life's setbacks, failures, challenges, test & curves, that are opportunities for growth. Trusting my intuition & embracing my vulnerability, I found strength in solitude & connection with a higher power. My journey has been one of self-discovery, spiritual awakening, & living authentically, sending ripple effects in changing mindsets, habits, behaviors, & ancestors cycles. Being your authentic empowered self means having haters, inner conflict, & navigating your emotions, mind & having to interact with those who want to steal & dim your light. There will be times you will fail, betray your intuition, & be broken, feel it all to learn the lesson, "This too shall pass".
Ultimately never betray yourself, even if it costs you everything you have, & start from scratch.
At every phase, whenever you choose a path less taken, you will encounter pushback, from your attachments to family, friends & partners that fear change, want control & challenge your space. At times your boundaries, levelling up, failure, & evolution threaten those who benefit from your demise, learn to release, & move on to find your tribe. Your greatest sabotager & limit is yourself, no-one is coming to save you nor is it your responsibility to save others. You are your own light from within, trust the uncomfortable silence, the present holds valuable information about yourself and those around you.
A Life of Purpose
Through introspection and personal growth, I discovered my calling to serve. My life has been a tapestry of contrasting experiences, teaching me the importance of authenticity, compassion, and spiritual growth. Committed to serving the powerless, I aim to live an impactful and sustainable lifestyle in God's universe, being my authentic & empowered self with clear boundaries & consciousness's.
True happiness comes from seeking your purpose within, being authentic, feeling your emotions, grieving, and connecting with others on a deeper level, to transcend. I was the underdog & blessed who found my light, joy, & voice within. Your parents did the best they could, your friends & partners you choose reflect where you are in life, & family should be your safety not demise, forgive yourself at every phase, and have the courage to seek your peace within. Aligning my masculine and feminine energy, I navigate life with gratitude for my faith, blessings, and gifts. Embracing my curiosity, divinity, naivety, innocence, and eclectic life force. I continue to grow, heal, & evolve in solitude, unbecoming, to reach my highest potential as a human being.
True happiness comes from seeking your purpose within, being authentic, feeling your emotions, grieving, and connecting with others on a deeper level, to transcend. I was the underdog & blessed who found my light, joy, & voice within. Your parents did the best they could, your friends & partners you choose reflect where you are in life, & family should be your safety not demise, forgive yourself at every phase, and have the courage to seek your peace within. Aligning my masculine and feminine energy, I navigate life with gratitude for my faith, blessings, and gifts. Embracing my curiosity, divinity, naivety, innocence, and eclectic life force. I continue to grow, heal, & evolve in solitude, unbecoming, to reach my highest potential as a human being.
Like everyone else am a work in progress, weird, spirited, witty, intelligent & is unchaining & unlocking to live in love, truth & peace the best way I can. At times learning profound lessons in epic failures, broken, & the peak of my success, which alters my identity, get to know my ego, shadow and inner child, face my fears, doubts, insecurities & attachments. Ultimately to open ones heart every time it breaks, spiritually awaken, connect, & be multidimensional in love.
So the answer to the question of who asked me is,
So the answer to the question of who asked me is,
"Me spirit is nomadic. I hear within the stillness, knowing its God that asked."
This life is a love letter I am writing to myself, to be the safety, love, peace, & authentic spirit I AM.
By Dutchess@deldeyoch
Comments
Post a Comment